One month ago yesterday, my mom unexpectadly passed away. The last month has been the hardest month of my life. I can't seem to grasp the fact that she's really not here anymore. Thankfully, it has been a very hectic month and I think that has helped to keep my mind off of it as much as possible. My mom was my best friend. I told her everything. We spoke on the phone about 5 times a day and we usually visited each other at least once a day (a year ago we moved a block away from my parent's house). She loved her grandchildren most. She would beg to have my 3 year old son overnight all the time. She spoiled them rotten. My daughter would only go by grandma, nobody else. It saddens me so much to know that they will probably not remember her for the most part. Christmas was her favorite time of year. She always went above and beyond for all of it. She loved to buy gifts for everyone and always only wanted a thank you, nothing more. She loved to cook... her pasta salads, desserts, dips, etc. She loved to throw parties. I miss you so much mom. If I can only be half as good of a mom to my kids, I will be satisfied. My world will never be the same.
